IMHO you probably dont have ADHD. Though we have alot in common, (Im also a musician and dropped out my jr. year of high school), reading your story gives me a feeling you may have been unfortunately misdiagnosed.
The easiest way to know is if Adderall or Ritalin made you feel normal and calm. (sometimes even sleepy. Ive taken naps while medicated on my adderall.) ADHD stimulant meds should have a very profound effect if you have ADHD. How do you feel when the medication wears off at night after having taken it for weeks? Crashed? Not that different? Wanting to take more?
And how did you feel when you stopped medicating after 3-5 days?
The easiest way to know is if Adderall or Ritalin made you feel normal and calm. (sometimes even sleepy. Ive taken naps while medicated on my adderall.) ADHD stimulant meds should have a very profound effect if you have ADHD. How do you feel when the medication wears off at night after having taken it for weeks? Crashed? Not that different? Wanting to take more?
And how did you feel when you stopped medicating after 3-5 days?