But once every 5 or so years I remember and become fixated again on the fact that there's nothing underneath.
And the results aren't good.
So the idea is that two sentiments you express there contradict each other, in some sense.
i.e. If there really was 'nothing underneath', then the results would be, well, irrelevant.
And, then if you start from the second bit, the fact that you have a fairly strong feeling that a certain situation is not good (by the sounds of it) and therefore (by implication) believe that there is a certain way that things should be, is what 'goes underneath'.
But once every 5 or so years I remember and become fixated again on the fact that there's nothing underneath.
And the results aren't good.
So the idea is that two sentiments you express there contradict each other, in some sense.
i.e. If there really was 'nothing underneath', then the results would be, well, irrelevant.
And, then if you start from the second bit, the fact that you have a fairly strong feeling that a certain situation is not good (by the sounds of it) and therefore (by implication) believe that there is a certain way that things should be, is what 'goes underneath'.